and yes, i have to admit im not a good person...
with lots of capabilities that are so wrong,
and not make myself become tougher and stronger...
i did, once again, sakiti hati orang lagi...
fiuwhh....
i cant imagine and dig out the memories like dumbledore or what ever his name is,
but i think most of people that i hurt, are the people that always be nice and kind to me...
i am so loss, like a losing game if i lost them...
its not about u add me or i add u in facebook, no such thing tho,
facebook is like a medium to make u sociable,
or u dislike someone, u just remove them...
NO, NO NO....
such a big mistake...
may be because of my rudeness and crucial, people tend to stay away, at least 1 inch or something from me...
YA ALLAH....
why i have to be so mean?
and i always do and try my best to comfort everyone around me...
i try not to use harsh words on them,
but its slipping out of my tongue....
its an arduous that i have to find a solution...
because i know, no matter how hurt these people are especially those i love the most....
the still do care for me, being concerned and always be nice as they always do...
anyway, may be, i need to lay low for awhile...
when people told me they were having bad time with this semester, i disagree with them...
i proved and make myself as comfortable as it, in this semester....
i wish i am stronger, and lenience..
i just hope Allah SWT forgive me, for what i did with everyone i hurt...
i do hope i can see people 1-0-1, and say sorry to them...
asking for apologize, and make them happy for once...
because i know and i believe angel named Izrael, will take away my soul anytime, anyhow....
its Allah's will...
insyallahhh.........
if i am not around them, i smile, with a big fat smile to see the happiness right on their face....
even though im not around them anymore, wallahualam, i never know when the time is, or the call is...
but i will make sure there is no tear drops from their eyes, but a big fat happy smile and they really let me go with redha... :)
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